Met up with a friend that I've been long lost contacted due to her studies. I'm so glad to have met up with her. I felt so enlightened. She's living no way better than me. I would say... I'm already consider better off?

I'm sorry. I've not been a very good soulmate to you. When you needed me the most, I wasn't there for you. You've undergone a period that's so excruciating painful. I'm glad that you've learnt to be positive and now you aspire me to be someone like you who is able to look forward without harping on all the bad happenings.

And yes, thanks for listening to me. All our tears are down in exchange for a better tomorrow. No doubt we suffer now. I'm positive that all these sufferings will make both of us stronger. Nobody understands us. Sometimes even the closest friends you thought would be empathetic, but sadly to say it's so NOT TRUE. I'm not trying to say everyone must be so obligated to be understanding or I would say be more bothered, but at least learnt the humane way to be concerned. Like you say, SOULMATE is really hard to come by.

Now that you are back, I'm so HAPPY! When you are not around... Thinking that you are still on overseas studies... I feel so isolated... But thankfully you are back... Your life story inspires me. I know that now I'm not alone. I've you who can totally understand the pain I'm undergoing and that you say you'll be there for me. THANK YOU. =) Now one more shoulder for me to lean on. I'll be like you.. I want to be the pillar of my family. I've to take care of myself. If I were to fall sick, the whole family will crumple.

This is your life story and I want to share with my readers:

Just like me, she is just 21, but she has got to face the biggest and most cruel fact in the world! Her dad is suffering from cancer. She has always lead a very good life; she doesn't have to worry about money because honestly speaking, little do people know her family is really well-to-do. Her brother has never come back to Singapore since he left for oversea studies many years back, neither does he ask about the family. And she was supposed to pursue her studies in medicine field at US for at least 5 years, but not even 1 year she's back. Her mom called her to announce that her dad has probably half a year to live and thus persuaded her to return home. The family needs her, because now the two old are as good as having no son. The heartless brother of hers kept finding excuses for not returning home. What an a**hole?! As an elder brother, he should hold the family together and be the pillar, but he fails to carry out his role. Now this burden is thrown to my friend and she has got to be the little parent at home.

She has got to learn to do financial planning and even manage the household. More importantly, her two parents are not healthy, she has got to take care of them. Her mom is suffering from mild parkinson and her dad is down with cancer. This state throws her into devastation and she so much wanted to end her life. However, she's stronger than I expect. She pulls herself together, she tells herself that now the family needs her, thus no matter what she has to live strong so that her parents can rely on her.

She knows that her dad's finance is going to run out soon due to the high medical fee for the cancer treatment. She started to work and crazily she worked for 7 days per week. She knows that though her dad has allocated money for her education, she doesn't want to touch it because eventually the family may need it for her dad's treatment. Her mom is partially ambulant disabled and she's also suffering from parkinson. Her treatment also costs a bomb.

What a life for a 21 year old? Isn't she suppose to enjoy life and study hard with no worries of finance? But what is she facing now?

Fortunately, she's very positive and now she's studying while working, all trying to make ends meet. I sincerely hope that everything will be good for her soon. And something to be happy about, she's now earning quite a bit. I guess good life is not far away already. I'm happy for her.

The problem I'm facing now, as compared to yours, is really not that major. I'm sure will be stronger after inspired by you. Nothing is impossible. Just do what I think I've got to do and  be healthy. I musn't fall sick as my family needs me. These are what you said... And I'll remember them.

I still have you. Someone I can rely on when in times of trouble. I love you! Thanks for all the heart warming concerns and  advices. =)

This post is dedicated to you my dear soulmate. =)

 All thanks to Ezann's blog recommendation... I'm DEEPLY in LOVE with this drama!

The characters:

Lee Hongki as  Kang On Yu / Jeremy

He's the most comical, hilarious member in A.N.JELL! He's such a cute boy! He really goes well with banana *for those who watch this drama should get what I mean* Haha!

Lee Hongki can further expand his entertainment career by becoming an actor, especially for those comical ones. He can really pull it off well! Besides knowing that he's the main lead singer in FT Island, I never knew that he can act so well. He's so talented! Wow~

Jung Yong Hwa as Kang Shin Woo

Shin Woo hyung to Go Minam... a very gentle and caring guy! The dream guy of A.N.JELL. He reminds me of Yoon Jihoo from BOF! But the outcome is very obvious the good guy always don't get the girl... T.T And in real life this type of guy doesn't exist ya? If they do, they don't come in abundant. Haha! Still, he does make girls go gaga and cry over his sentimental and unconditional love =) However, I do feel sad for him awwww~ Love the girl so much but yet can't win over the girl's heart. Poor Shin Woo~

But one thing is obvious... Jung Yong Hwa's gonna be the next popular fresh face in the Korean entertainment scene especially for drama! Attractive personality and face! My eyecandy hehe!

Jang Geun Suk as Hwang Tae Kyung

The leader of A.N.JELL! Looks tough and arrogant on the outside. Yet, that's to cover his pathetic background and his fragile side. He reminds me of Goo Junpyo from BOF! Haha. Always wanting to do something for Go Minam yet not always at the right time. And he's too reluctant to show his concern for her yet wanna protect her. OMG! Love his subtle way of showing his love for Go Minam. One of the characters in the drama that slowly grows on me over time! Loves~ Initially I'm so loving Shin Woo's character but slowly Tae Kyung's character slowly grows on me. Love his gothic look hehe!

Jang Geun Suk has been in the Korean entertainment industry since young. Notice him when he appeared in Hwang Jini. Now I think he must have become more popular! He has such a babyface yet his acting skills has been highly praised by famous acting teacher Choi Hyung-In from Hanyang University.Cool! Now a new favorite actor on my list! Fighting Jang Geun Suk!

Park Shin Hye Go Mi Nam (Male) / Go Mi Nyu (Female)

The female lead (or rather the male lead haha) of this popular drama! Go Minam reminds me of Eun Chan from Coffee Prince. She was forced to pretend her twin brother to join the boyband. And so lucky! All three members fall in love with her! Awwww~ Jeremy was so funny; when he realised he had fallen for "him", he thought he's a gay LOL! Love the nick that Tae Kyung gave her- "Pig-rabbit" aka Tweji Tokki.

Park Shin Hye has really grown up to become a lovely lady! She has improved so much on her acting skills! Has totally changed from the sweet little girl in Stairways to Heaven to a beautiful actress with good acting skills! Well done! Looking forward to her next production! Hope she'll get a more interesting role the next time round! She's such a versatile actress... From sweet little girl to villain in Goong S then to the boyish Go Minam. I can't wait to see a change in her acting role! =)

Some of my favorite scenes:

Shin Woo try to help Mi Nam to escape from the male shower room. So sweet~

Tae Kyung comforting Mi Nam after knowing that she's upset over her mom's death. So sweet!!!!!

Super hero Shin Woo came to the rescue again! Protect her from getting expose to the press that she's a girl. So sweet~ Screams!

Two guys showing their concern and jealousy over Mi Nam! Haha! So fuuny!

Tae Kyung performed an operation on a pig and rabbit. And Tada~ We've a PIG-RABBIT! The toy is specially made for Mi Nam! AHHHHHHH! So sweet! I hope I can have it too! Lucky Mi Nam!

Mi Nam sleeping on Tae Kyung! Omo omo! They make such a cute couple!

I'm so obessessed with the drama that sometimes I'll dream of the scenes haha! Though I'm now at episode 11, I'll try my best to watch it slowly. I don't want to get withdrawal symptoms so fast! Haha!

Dear Santa, I want a Pig-rabbit for X'mas hehe...

I'm really very scared. Seriously, I don't want to think too much. But.. all the symptoms seem to point to the fact that I may be suffering from STOMACH CANCER. Yesterday night was really a gruelling night. The pain in my upper abdomen was really killing me. And in the morning when I ate my breakfast, the excruciating pain returned. And so I was forced to see doctor. She didn't really do a good job in diagnosing my sickness. This really made me angry! This just goes to show how useless she is! She didn't do detailed diagnosis and easily commented that I simply got gastritis. Fine! Maybe I'm just being too sensitive. But I bet she wouldn't know how scared I am. I went to google about the symptoms of stomach cancer and the results show...

Stomach cancer often does not have symptoms in the early stages, or they can be vague and non-specific -- such as nausea or weight loss. Also, there is no single symptom that exactly pinpoints stomach cancer, therefore further evaluation and testing is required for a diagnosis.

Blood in the stool is a symptom of stomach cancer, you can't always actually see blood that may be in the stool. Tests like the fecal occult blood test (FOBT) detect blood in the stool. Blood in the stool can also be related to other types of cancer, like colon cancer. It is also associated with less severe health problems, such as hemorrhoids and anal fissures.

Abdominal pain is one of the most common stomach cancer symptoms and is usually what prompts people to seek medical attention. Abdominal pain can range from persistent mild discomfort to severe pain. Pain and discomfort generally occurs in the upper abdomen area. Persistent abdominal pain, regardless of where it occurs, needs to be evaluated by your doctor.

Nausea and vomiting are very non-specific symptoms that can be common among people with stomach cancer. Persistent nausea and/or vomiting needs to be checked by your doctor. It can indicate a serious health problem, and can cause damage to the lining of the esophagus. If you are vomiting blood, it is important to see your doctor right away.

Not feeling like eating for a day or two can be normal, but anything longer should be really be reported to your doctor. Again, loss of appetite is a very vague symptom and is related to many health conditions.

Abdominal bloating is also a common symptom of stomach cancer, especially after meals. Indigestion and heartburn are also symptoms related to stomach cancer.

Changes in bowels habits related to stomach cancer include constipation and/or diarrhea.

Fatigue that last more than a few days can indicate a medical problem. In relation to stomach cancer, fatigue is often related to anemia, because of blood loss in the stool or from vomiting.

Most of us would welcome weight loss without dieting, but it really is a health concern that needs to be brought to your doctor's attention. If you have lost about 5 percent of your normal body weight in the course of six months or less, and haven't been dieting or exercising, call your doctor. Unintentional weight loss can be the result of many conditions, cancer included.

Out of the 8 symptoms, I hit 7 of them. I first came to realise how bad my body condition was when I saw blood in my stool and it was excessive. Now that after eating medicine I'm feeling better, but now and then the acute pain still returns, especially after food has enter my stomach. So what's wrong? I'm really worried. If after two weeks, the symptoms still persist, then I'll have to go for some CT scan thingy. When the day comes, I know my intuition is right.

Ok, firstly I would really like to show my appreciation to my pal! You know who you are haha! Thank you so much, the present I received from you today really touched me! Really very sweet of you. =) You know who you are haha!

Hey! Your wrapping skill is not that bad afterall la! *Thumbs up* =)

Thank you for the personalized messages in the organiser! Heart-felt! =)

Next, my tuitee who's still in secondary school! He lend me "Twilight"! Haha! You must be wondering what's so great about him lending me this book... It's not about the book but it's the action... He seems to remember most of the things that I'd said.

 "I've never read Twilight, really hope that I can read it once." He lend me his friend's copy.

"My primary school kid is really driving me crazy. I really hate teaching him." He answered, "You mean the kid from XXXXXX Pri?"

etc ... ....

I only said those once and it had been ages, but yet he remembers! And seriously talking to him is like talking to a buddy! He reminds me of my korean kids... =)

Finally, a tuitee that I start to like in recent years. Of course, my favorite is still my korean kids who left me long ago. I miss them so much!

Last but not least, my APCDs! Meow~ Though I feel down, but being with you all really brightens my day! Thanks for bearing with my "dramas" and nonsense! And of course, the laughters you all bring me! Looking forward to school because of the presence of APCDs! Rock on APCD!

Recess week  is coming and it's gonna be project chiong-ing! But I know with you all, the tough becomes fun! And I'm so excited about our buffet outing! Woohoo~

Thank you, the above people! You make me feel the love and warmth! Especially during my hard times... Thanks!

Sadly... I'm going to bid farewell to my two big toe nails! After the leaving of the previous four, now these two new grown members are saying goodbye real soon too! They are causing me much agony! So... 长痛不如短痛, once and for all! The sooner they are separated from the flesh the better! I beg them to come off soon PLEASE!

Below: I thought my left leg's big toe nail won't get worse, but after yesterday's netball match... This is the one that cause me very much of an agony when walking or wearing shoe. Please don't ask me why when you saw me walking in a very awkward manner haha. See! The flesh around the nail is "blushing red"! Though the nail is not appearing black, in fact, it's seriously PAINFUL! Awww~

Below: *tada* Presenting to you - my right leg's big toe nail! Self-explanatory isn't it? Horrible ya? I know it's disgusting! Though it's appearing black, it doesn't cause that much agony as compare to the left leg's one. Oh ya! I heard if it's appearing black, it means the toe has already been invaded by fungi! Darn scary lah! In fact, I'm very worried!

Maybe I should start a "SAVE JASMINE'S TOE NAIL" campaign! *Shakes head* Tsk tsk...